What's Alive
March 14, 2026
I'm feeling some heaviness today. A few different opportunities have come and gone, one that I was especially excited about. The conversations felt so good. I felt embodied and resonant in every one of them. And it still didn't work out.
That's the hard part. Not the rejection itself, but the disbelief. Damn, how could it not be this one?
There's an emotional soreness to it. A tiredness. The uncertainty of not knowing what's next or when the next thing that feels right will arrive.
And at the same time, I feel energized. Springtime is doing its thing. Homie Calendar is coming to life. Emma is here. My friends are here. There's a feeling of possibility, of things emerging that I can't see yet, which gives me hope even as things are hard.
I'm learning to hold both.
Now
🧠 Learning
Art of Accomplishment Old Students
Hakomi Comprehensive Training Level 2
❓ Questioning
How can I be more myself more of the time?
What if I'm knocking on doors that aren't meant to open?
📚 Reading
Project Hail Mary
Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom.